Email to my brother

Situation is not too good. Colin keeps repeating he doesn't love me. I have stopped talking to him. I have no more desire to talk to him. Weridly he is being nicer and try to make conversation but i cannot bring myself to talk to him.

I have arranged for marriage counselling end of Aug. He wants the counselling session. He claims he don't know what is wrong.

I am so tired. Still have to go to work. Still have to talk cock with customers. Still have to pretend nothing is wrong with me at work.

31st Aug mark our 6th year together. But I am slowly slipping away. My heart is hardening. The man sleeping next to me at night is no longer my husband. He is just somebody who looks like him. In my heart I silently grieve the lost of my husband.

I am all alone here in Singapore but I will pull through this. A lot of tears will be shed but my spirit will not be broken.

Please do not tell Dad. I don't want to give him unnecessary burden. Dad will be very sad.

I will stop here. I do not know what else to say.