Seafod Paradise - Stuff your face day

For my 2 friends, ah no and ah fat who didn't attend the crab feast!!!

hehe...don't be jealous :)

Me and bubi first to arrive. So sad nobody.


SEAFOOD PARADISE at 91 Defu Lane 10



Nothing to do... take pictures of my pretty self ...ha!

Me and Bubi.

Char Siew and Bwen Bwen


Playing with his new toy


Ok, we arrive like 6.40pm and the food only arrive at 7.30pm. By this time, Twink and her Mu Tou have not arrived yet.

1st dish - Druken Prawns - Super YUM!


2nd dish - Coffee Ribs yumyum too


3rd dish - TOUFU...mmmmmmmhmmmmm


4th Dish - Sum Bai Chai ---slurp


Crab 1 - Vermicelli broth Crab


Crab 2 - Butter crab





Crab 3 - Chili Crab


8th dish - Peking Chicken


Poster girl for Seafood paradise


Happy shiny people



Happiest shining person

Sepia tone by Bwen bwen


After that we went to some kampong hippy place at dunnoe where in Hougang.

Trying to act cute

Bapok with Bwen

Mmmmm...yummmmm....byeeeeeeeeeeeee

Patience and love

Things are getting better.

Moomoo asked Jesus to whack him but I think Jesus placed his gentle touch on him and showed him love instead.

The turn around has been surprising.

Will continue to be patient.

God is looking out for me

I know you are Lord. You have just sent your angel to talk to me. I am still a bit stunned by the whole episode.

I have been lost and now I want to walk right with you again.

I am steady bom bi bi

Today he told me he is depressed. Depressed over the same thing again.

I was driving at that time. I didn't feel sad. Infact I had to console him and talk to him nicely. We even had dinner together cordially. I steady boh?

I really feel like my child has gone off the track and now I need to be patient and talk to him and make him understand.

He seems to be a bit happier when we got home and he even planted a kiss on my lips. We hadn't had a kiss in a whole week. He is waiting for the counselling session to hear what an independent party has to say.

A male married friend gave me valuable insight on what is happeneing to me. I must say, I am sorry my single friends, still married people seem to give better and varied points of view from different angles.

Single friends are great to lend a listening ear and be there for laughter and cursing. But somehow married friends give very sane and straight to the point advice.

He is now asleep at 930pm. I went to him and he had his eyes closed and frowning. With his eyes closed I gave him eye massage and you can instantly see his face relaxed and the frown disappear.

My married male friend said "Be generous, accept and forgive his behaviour, time and environment will make everything better. He is inconsistant in his words, he might be falling into depression. Be generous."

MMF "You should be and can be happy again."

I will REN! For the greater good. I just want my bubi back.

What do you want from me?

Today, I picked you up after work for dinner. You actually held my hand, first time in 5 days.

At home you gave me a hugged and I told you, you were smelly and you said " For better or worse"

I didn't know how to react. Should I be happy? But I am afraid you might say those words again and my world will spin again out of control. I kept quiet and walked away.

I logged into facebook and check you out.

I saw that you "superhugged" some girl, and only this girl. And you sent her a video and left her a message with the words "Luv ya" inside the whole message.

I cannot hide my feelings. although you are sleeping, I went into the room and asked you who is this girl.

You claimed she is a colleague and her whoever's (can't remember) death anniversay and you just sent her something.

Should I believe you? You keep saying she is a colleague only and nothing is going on. You said you only "Luv ya" to her but you will "Love you" to me. You laughed and said you will superhugged me as well. To me what's the point? Am I priority on your list?

You said I am jealous. Of cos I am. Is it wrong of me to be jealous?

You asked me what is going on through my head. I kept quiet and said goodnight and you hugged me.

If you knew what is going through my head, there will be more sadness.

I so wanted to tell you "After all this trying is over and you still don't love me. I will let you go in good time. Be patient with me for the moment." These words wanted to burst out. Instead I just said Goodnight. I don't know if keeping quiet was the right thing to do. I walked out of the room to blog this.

You can't sleep and came out smiling and brought your laptop in and said to me "Ha, I am going to send you a superhugged!"

I just checked my facebook and you "cuddled" me. I don't feel special. I saw that you removed the video you sent her. Probably changed the settings to a private gift. I am no idiot.

Just hang on for a while ok? Just be by my side a while longer. If you really want to go, I will let you go. Just not now.

Our Sunday

You have been very very very nice. Almost the calm before the storm. You bring me out for dim sum at 930am. It's almost a miracle considering we both sleep late on sundays.

You asked me for a movie over breakfast.

Youu come into the room and switch on the aircon for me when it is warm while I am taking a nap.

You asked me if I wanted to fgo to church??!!?? Did Jesus kick you in the arse?

You made sure I knew where was the toilet at the cinema. You actually waited for me outside the theatre so that I know where we were sitting. Funny thing is our seats are at the last row. How to miss?

Is this the calm before the storm?

Reply from my brother

Girl,

Don't lose hope. Go for counselling. Sometimes, in our relationships, we hit a patch and think all is lost. It has happened a few times for me too. At the end of the day, if it is meant to be , both of you will betogether.

Time will tell if Colin will come back to you. he must have a reason why he feels this way. How can somebody stop loving somebody? It is possible there is a 3rd party, maybe he is having an infatuation. but if it is the case, he will have to work out his thoughts and see if he wants to make therelationship work.

The cooling off period helps. He will have to think what he wants to do next. In the mean time, busy yourself with work and think positve thoughts. Channel your energy to work and do the best you can.

We will talk more when i come back on the 21st.

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Yes how can somebody stop loving somebody? I also want to know how this happens? Iam hurting so badly. I am sitting here looking at our wedding photos handing on the wall. My heart literally feels pain. tears streaming down my face uncontrollably.

Is there an end to this?

Duffy - Warwick Avenue

Are you singing about me?

Email to my brother

Situation is not too good. Colin keeps repeating he doesn't love me. I have stopped talking to him. I have no more desire to talk to him. Weridly he is being nicer and try to make conversation but i cannot bring myself to talk to him.

I have arranged for marriage counselling end of Aug. He wants the counselling session. He claims he don't know what is wrong.

I am so tired. Still have to go to work. Still have to talk cock with customers. Still have to pretend nothing is wrong with me at work.

31st Aug mark our 6th year together. But I am slowly slipping away. My heart is hardening. The man sleeping next to me at night is no longer my husband. He is just somebody who looks like him. In my heart I silently grieve the lost of my husband.

I am all alone here in Singapore but I will pull through this. A lot of tears will be shed but my spirit will not be broken.

Please do not tell Dad. I don't want to give him unnecessary burden. Dad will be very sad.

I will stop here. I do not know what else to say.

When it is time.

I have stopped wanting to talk to you. Suddenly you become interested in my day. You want to send me to work at the doorstep. You say good morning with such enthusiatic.

I cannot reply with the same zest. I don't know what's going through in you mind. Hack I don't know what's going through in my mind.

I dare not be too close to you. When I try my best and be happy around you, you will someone choose to hurt me in ways unimaginable.

Tell me a few more times that you do not love me anymore. Shout it out to me. I dont think it makes a difference because those words have been ringing in my head consistently after that night.

I have no more desire to want to look at you but yet I have this burning urge to hug you. When you left this morning I was hiding in the kitchen and crying softly. Now I sit here writing this and you forgot something and came back. Again I do not want to look at you with my moist eyes and you tell me to have a nice day before going out the door again.

I love you but I love myself more. I don't like me now. I am in pain.

When it is time. I will let you go. In good time.