Some alone time - Happy nonsense thoughts

Sitting on my golden throne and doing my poo pooing at 1.13am on a Friday morning. Things I do when I am all alone in a contained space. And guess what else I am doing. Just sitting here listening to:

Jason Mraz - I'm yours on Youtube.




The melody is just soothing. This is one of those songs where they really can call it music to thy ears.

Feels like I am sitting on a beach somewhere and relaxing. Just me and myself. Having some alone time to myself is sometimes one of the best enjoyment. Nobody to boss me around. I can do whatever I want at whatever time I wish. Doing nothing is right at the top of the list. Without a care in the world, however brief it is.

Can't wait for my 3 weeks break in December. The idea of sitting through 13 hours of flight by myself some how trills me. Me and myself among other strangers whose thoughts I would pretend to read. Ordering beer and sipping while I watch re-runs of Friends and dozzing off. Only to wake up to the robotic voice of Chicken Or Fish?

Looking through the in-flight catalog and deciding which item to get only to reject the idea completely at the last minute. Digging through my big brown bag and admiring my latest purchase of lipstick from Mac. Who am I kidding? It will be Viva Glam V. Again? Yes I love that colour, thank you. So shoot me.

Listening to my free Samsung MP3 courtesy of my ex-company's door gift at Zouk last year whereas the snotties around me will be totting an IPOD. Probably reflecting on my life throughout 2008. Scary. Very scary. Already I am wishing for a better 2009. Damn ...what happened to my carefree thoughts on a beach a while ago?

So my family, fambily and friends...I do really hope that whereever you are at any time, know that I always wish you the best . I may not be easy to be with but my heart is pure. My words and actions at times rough around the edges, my heart is soft. Overbearing as I am, my heart is true.

I'm yours.

The year is coming to an end. I wish God will just tell me exactly what to do so that I can skip all those heartbreak that comes along in relationships in family, friends and work. But he does not want to. He gives me the freedom of choice. Note to self. Make better choices in 2009. But Lord can you please show me the way? Or at least drop me a hint when I am beginning to look pathetic?

XOXO
Me and myself